Nothing to worry about, Its NOT breast cancer thank goddess!

I’m heading to see my GP this morning. I wasn’t going to post about this here but in my Livejournal in a locked entry there but I have decided different. A few days ago I discovered a lump in my right breast, It had some discomfort but nothing that was gut gripping, bending over in pain sort of thing, Since then Its not as tender but Its noticeable so it’s a visit to make sure its nothing to be overly worried about.

I’m not scared, But Now that I’m heading to my GP I’m dreading the report, the what if it is breast cancer?

My former mother-in-law had breast cancer and she can understand how I am currently feeling. I’m glad to know some one I know personally has been where I am currently standing. Either way If I have it I guess I will share my experiences on this path along the way. Still I’ll learn later this morning if its Anything to be  Concerned about and I will update here regarding it.

Tonight my dad’s wife; Ann Yahooed me. It was out of teh blue as I seldom have yahoo up and I seldom see her on when I do have it up. But she told me some  lovely news about my step/half sister her daughter. She’s gonna be a momma, Due date is August 27th 2009 so I’ve got this huge smile  that’s taking me thru New Years with a smile.

I get to a lil nephew or niece ^_^

Well damn the year is so close to the end of its existence, How fast 2008 flew by and so much has happened in it for my family and myself.  Firstly my birthday was a quiet time at home with the family I got Flowers, and also the battle chest of Warcraft III ^_^

My eldest daughter has her first boyfriend, He just celebrated his 18th Birthday yesturday so I’ll be relating to him in posts as “Master 18″ He’s very respectable and loyal. Has old morals which I really like. I can talk to him about “SEX”  Regarding I had some things I wanted to address clearly regarding to my daughter. most guys would go red and want to hide but he was really cool and stayed and listened. He’s meet all of the family now.

For Christmas I got - A new Handbag/backpack, Surround Sound System, WotLK Steel series key set, underwear, pajamas, Guitar Hero World tour & candy. However Daryl never did arrive as he had stated about spending Christmas out here with us. He pretty much stopped talking to me again, Which is how its been since Dann and I broken up back in 2001.

Anyway times to go do stuff, I have a tone of  things I need to go do as my dad is coming up tomorrow.

Over the years I’ve managed to get about on the internet, Some sites haven’t last others are just to good to pass up so here’s a list of the sites that are pretty much networks for online friends.

• Myspace - My official myspace page, If you have one and want to add me go ahead I may just add you back!
• Bebo - Mostly has family splashed all over it and some friends.
• Facebook - A mix of family & friends.

1. Last FM - Music, Music I hear music!
2. Meez - My Profile and 3D doll - She does change on a regular basis.
3. Vox - Originally was my move from Livejournal then became my Guildwar’s Blog only to became a reserved blog.
4. Livejournal - My second blog home & still loved!
5. Deviant art - Some of my early artworks can be found here.
6. Flickr - My Flickr Account - Clickity Click!.
7. xFire - My xFire account when I recall to log in!
8. xBox Gamertag - My gamer tag for xBox.

I’ve been asked many a question, some get asked like cracked records and so that was one of the reasons I did this page. Want to ask me something. Ask me if its Good enough or worth it I may place it up here just so I don’t have to repeat myself.

1. You seem good at your artwork, Do you design games?

2. Do you have a gallery of your artworks?

3. Do you do pictures of your artwork for friends?

4. You won’t mind  me using your artwork, Can I just take it?

5. Are you really a girl gamer?

6. Your old though to be a gamer?

7. What are your WoW toons?

8. Aren’t you the Sassy Brat From Guild Wars?

9. What’s the story with you and X Shelobs X from [ReVo]?

10. Are you still Luxon?

11. Are you still good friends with Mags? Would you guys ever patch up your differences?
– Ironically We have fought so many times I just can’t be bothered anymore with it, Its old as in really old while I said I wouldn’t I guess I’m just a softie and I always see good in others when others can’t or don’t see it. So in Jan 2009 We talked  and made amends. Hes just a friend nothing more, less or anything I don’t class him either as my best friend like I once did I pretty much am cautious.

12. I was friends with you in Guildwars but we lost connection / or whatever other reason, I’m sorry and I wanna patch it up be friends again?
– Seriously, If You still talk with me today You’ve been lucky if not chances are you made my shitlist and I couldn’t give a fuck if a train kills you.

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This is a list of my current domains I actually own.

• Bad Bad Girl - My Game Blog

I did a revamp of my domain, I got really sick of how it looked and after much decision I purchased a layout I liked and have been tweaking it most of the day. I also added sitemetre after a IP was revealed of hitting my domain (I have logs of this). I know who it is so  to that individual if he ever returns …

Why do you bother checking up what I am doing? Why do you bother when you made it damn clear I was nothing of importance to you because you had focused on a mere game and our plans we discussed  where mere words, Words on your part of no emotion as I had for you. You always said that wasn’t so that you did feel  what you had told me but if you had you would never discarded our friendship like you had, You once knew me better than the many you  took too and yet with what you knew you still kicked me while I was down, you never supported me or stood by my side, instead you feed me to the pack like raw meat and laughed  after the hurt and pain, You took what trust I once held  dear for you and stomped it to an oblivion of nothingness You broke what we had and while I tried so hard to hold on and told you things I saw You shrugged it off and laughed on only to tell me you didn’t want me as a friend that it was a mere mistake us trying  to be and so I left  without another word, without another fight because you never once fought for us or me, yet you come here 6 months after our last words looking, what do you expect? What do you damn want? Your new girl no longer fills your desires or needs like teh last ones you had replacing me in the past and you regret your actions and words to me is that it? Well I won’t be the one crawling to you or contacting you If you so want to talk that is something you will need to do on your own because I did that alike the apologies once to often with you and look where it got me. If No words spoken or no contact and you keep hitting my domain I will ban your IP and ISP from accessing this domain and any other domain I own. Because to me Your last words made it extremely clear where *I* stand.